Of Planes And Prayer

Those who know me well would know I had an intense fear or flying which I developed after a turbulent flight.  When forced to fly, I would be paralysed in my seat, I couldn't eat, it took me ages to get from my seat to the toilet as I inched step by step, every bump in the air would skyrocket my heart beat, I couldn't look out the window.  It'll be the same whether it's a 45 minute local flight or a 13 hour flight to Europe, whether it's a 747 or an Airbus, whether it's Malaysian Airlines or British Airways.  If I had to go through that recent Air Asia flight washing machine malfunction, I would probably seriously collapse from anxiety or worse.  It's not about faith or trust or redha. Trust me, I don't think my thoughts or prayer to The Almighty would  be as crystal clear as it would be in any other situation.  What I need from the pilot is absolute calmness which is what they ate trained to behave. And from the recordings I have heard, that calmness was not there.  Maybe some people would find it reassuring to hear the Captain day what was said. I know I won't be and that does not make me any less of a believer.  Ps. I'm less of a basket case now when it comes to flying. It doesn't mean I am less fearful. I think it means I am more accepting of fate and more reliance on Allah AWJ.